As much as i am looking forward to graduating highschool and going to university, i think there’s a part of me that doesn’t want to move forward at all. i keep procrastinating to finish my resume, get my letters done, and apply for scholarships. when it comes to university, deadlines are extremely important. so why do i keep putting it off?
on the surface it seems like i just don’t want to grow up; no responsibilities, mommy makes me dinner, drives me to work, and pays for stuff. but i can manage on my own. i know i can be lazy at times, but i’m so motivated to pack up and go therefore that can’t be the answer. what else could there be?
everytime i attempt to do my resume, i get frustrated. i think the reason for this is the reason behind the whole thing actually; i feel like i haven’t accomplished anything. now with that being said, i’ve done a lot during my high school years. Superfast, Halloween for Hunger, D.R.E.A.M.S. (in 2 more sleeps!!!), acoustic night, talent show, christmas concert, Feeder School Tour, Coop, Choir, Band, Me to We and probably a lot more that i can’t think of at the moment. after all of that stuff, nothing sticks out in my head. i feel like just an average student, trying to find something else to do for a post-secondary education.
Now in 2 more days, i’ll be off to the Dominican Republic to help build houses with Cardinal Newman’s 2010 D.R.E.A.M.S. team. maybe this trip is the experience i need, the event i’ve been waiting for. i’m trying to use my creative talents to make something out of the trip that i can bring back with me and share with everyone else. i know that’s going to be a challenge on it’s own, but it’s an oppourtunity to put my video skills to the test.
This is always debatable, but i probably don’t feel accomplished because i have so many different artistic abilities that i’m not really great at one thing. i can paint, draw, sing, write, and i love editing videos & photos. acting and dancing are doable if it was a life or death situation haha. so no wonder nothing really sticks out for me, everything is scattered everywhere.
How the hell do you explain all of that to a university professor who’s interviewing you? and now this comes to a full circle, because i wish i could just freeze time and stay forever young.
Awh thank you :))
^did you see what I did there? DOUBLE CHIN
lol thank you :)
sometimes, i think im kinda funny too :o
it baffles my mind how kids try to become activists without thinking. for instance, my facebook has been spammed with invites to the group “Stop dissections* at Newman” like, its pretty obvious that the frogs/rats/pigs etc died of natural causes so its not like mass murder. not to mention kids dissect in groups for a reason, if one kid had their own animal each then it would probably be a problem.
the main thing though is this: we don’t dissect for the hell of it. students do it to get a full hands on learning experience about biology and how body systems work. if we didn’t have dissections in school then i bet the SAME kids who are protesting against it would start fighting for it. they would argue that we need it so we can understand what it is in science class that we’re actually studying. it’s part of the science course for a reason, its educational. and this is true.
it’s also not hypocritical at all of us to dissect animals because humans dissect dead humans to find out causes of death. and when it’s a huge celebrity who died such as michael jackson, then almsot everyone is dying to know the results of the autopsy. so why should a lab rat be any different?
im not exactly sure where i stand in this situation. i have successfully avoided it by only taking the required sciences in high school :D.the concept doesn’t bother me, but i never said i was for it either. if someone has a problem with it that badly, simply don’t take the course. and if you can’t avoid it, then suck it up. what are you going to do? OD on Advil cause you rather die than open up a lab rat, only to be sliced open yourself days later? it’s a part of life, just leave my facebook alone.
A picture began circulating in November. It should be “The Picture of
the Year,”… or perhaps, “Picture of the Decade.” It won’t be. In fact,
unless you obtained a copy of the U.S. paper which published it, you
probably would never have seen it.
The picture is that of a
21-week-old unborn baby named Samuel Alexander Armas, who is being
operated on by surgeon named Joseph Bruner. The baby was diagnosed with
spina bifida and would not survive if removed from his mother’s womb.
Little Samuel’s mother, Julie Armas, is an obstetrics nurse in Atlanta.
She knew of Dr. Bruner’s remarkable surgical procedure. Practicing at
Vanderbilt University Medical Center in Nashville, he performs these
special operations while the baby is still in the womb.
the procedure, the doctor removes the uterus via C-section and makes a
small incision to operate on the baby. As Dr. Bruner completed the
surgery on Samuel, the little guy reached his tiny, but fully developed
hand through the incision and firmly grasped the surgeon’s finger. Dr.
Bruner was reported as saying that when his finger was grasped, it was
the most emotional moment of his life, and that for an instant during
the procedure he was just frozen, totally immobile.
photograph captures this amazing event with perfect clarity. The editors
titled the picture, “Hand of Hope.” The text explaining the picture
begins, “The tiny hand of 21-week-old fetus Samuel Alexander Armas
emerges from the mother’s uterus to grasp the finger of Dr. Joseph
Bruner as if thanking the doctor for the gift of life.”
Samuel’s mother said they “wept for days” when they saw the picture. She
said, “The photo reminds us pregnancy isn’t about disability or an
illness, it’s about a little person” Samuel was born in perfect health,
the operation 100 percent successful. Now see the actual picture, and it
is awesome…incredible….and hey, pass it on! The world needs to see
UPDATE: I got this from my Aunt who lives in Nashville on facebook and wanted to share this inspiring story. I have been told it’s not 100% real. Either way, it’s still beautiful.
Dont you ever wish that people who are going to screw you over in the future just had that statement tattooed on their forehead? “I solemnly swear that i am up to no good.” i dont know how i always end up in these situations. what i will never understand is why other people act the way the do.
When people around me do things that i dont agree with, i can live with it as long as i understand the reason behind it. that’s probably why i cant get over it. now im talking about multiple situations here, not just one. but they all include somebody offending me for reasons that i cannot understand. one of these people i have forgiven, or at least getting there. another, i simply dont care. but the one that bothers me the most is because ive known them the longest, and they are probably the most illogical ive ever come across.
it’s sad really, because these days everyone only looks out for themselves. actually it’s not so much sad as it is scary. everyone is on their own in this world; no matter how many friends you have, people you party with, whatever. the person you trust to have your back won’t always be there for you. and yeah, it sucks.
currently, im battling the stage where im trying to put it all behind. but it’s more than a challenge when i cant communicate with this illogical person. i just want to know why? is that so hard? i mean, i do know why, but it still doesnt make sense. maybe it never will.