pretty sure i balance burning tree and hanging with my friends pretty well, but got criticized regardless because i’m expected to live up to one person’s expectations.

Saw dr ozi and Andy zills in London ontario on friday and the show was just amazing.
I got to meet nix and christian and they seem like a couple of funny guys. My boyfriend got to ride up with them to London and when we arrived we got to be on stage with them and just go nuts!

I was the only girl out of the dozen people who came with me, so during the show I ran all over the place by myself, I went ham in the front row and then again on stage, then ran off and went for a walk at one point and it was so nice.

Its nights like this where I realize my problems don’t matter.

And at the end of the night, I get told my mate wished he spent more of the night with me.

Clearly I’m not as attached as I used to be and I keep realizing things about myself in the process.

But I havent “changed” one bit. I’m just in the process of growing up.

it’s good to talk about the things that have scarred you, because while telling the story to another, you are putting it into a final perspective for yourself, connecting it to the bigger picture and kinda making peace with it.

there is the theory (which i believe) that there is a neverending cycle where our lives bounce back and forth between stress and relief. i’m currently experiencing relief and im wondering what next could possibly cause me more stress after everything within the past few months.

doesnt life eventually run out of shit to throw at you?